Hey, my name is Lauriane and I’m 20 years old. I was born in september 1995, in a small town in Quebec, Canada. I speak both french and english but french is my first language. I am the middle child of a family of five. Growing up I loved to speak my mind, I always had deep conversation with grown-ups who thought I was very mature for my age. Although I liked to speak, I was a little awkward. I was a chubby little red hair girl, covered in freckles. In class, I was lost in my thoughts and spent most of my time drawing. As the years passed, I struggled more and more with my self-confidence. I tried to lose weight many times when I was just a child. I had friends and I was happy in my early teens but my weight was always in the back of my mind.
At 14, I was heavier than ever. At my yearly doctor’s appointement, she told me I was obese. I remember feeling so bad and at that moment my weight became an obsession. I barely knew anything about nutrition but my best friend’s big sister told me about a diet that would make me lose a lot of weight. She told me she did it herself and lost 10 pounds the first week. I was sold. I remember the whole diet could fit on a small piece of paper. In the morning I would eat fruits and low fat cottage cheese (EW!), at lunch always a salad and dinner was lean protein and veggies but NO CARROTS (wth?). I starved myself for weeks, exercise a lot and lost 40 pounds in just a few months. I was hungry and deprived but I felt good about myself. I managed to keep the weight down for about 2 years, going up and down 10 pounds at the time. Starving myself, than eating too, much than exercising like a hamster, than not move for weeks. It was bad.
At 17 I moved from my parents house to a dorm room, a seven hours drive away. I went away for school and stayed with my boyfriend at the time. He was into gym and nutrition so we would eat what I thought was a healthy diet, drank protein shakes and go to the gym. (Yup! Haha) When we broke up a year later I totally lost control on my weight, I stopped cooking and going to the gym and I was in a very dark place. Not long after I discovered I had a thyroid gland problem called hypothyroidism (I’ll talk more about that) wich cause me to gain weight and not being able to lose it. Mixed with my poor eating habits, I gained nearly 50 pounds.
And now, time for change! In january 2016 I made the switch to veganism for my health, for the animals and for the planet. I owe it to myself to do the best I can to be healthy and happy, to stop counting calories, to move everyday and to be active, to love myself and to be a better person! I am still obese and paying the price for my poor life choice but I didn’t know any better and now I do!
I hope you’ll enjoy reading my journey, going from 210 pounds to a more healthy me!
You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.